In 2001 I met a woman, going through a divorce, 2 kids, own house and car and 13 years older than me. We were together for nearly 2 years and I was gutted when we split, her reason being that she didnt want anymore kids....I got over it after a few months, then I found out she was shacked up with a lottery winner who was ugly as sin...4 words sprung to mind, 'Gold Digger' and 'Lucky Escape'!
2 years of dating.....
In 2005 I met a woman, going through a divorce, 3 kids, own house and car and seven years older than me. We were together for 8 months. I wasnt gutted when we split, I got her pregnant totally by accident (it split).I knew that something wasnt quite there because I didnt have that 'sickie' feeling you get when youre in love! For 8 months she did nothing but slag her ex off, fight with him, call him names and I knew by the fact that she never stopped harping on about him that she still had feelings for him. They are now back together, she had him back after he'd had a 2 year affair with her best mate. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that he's loaded.....4 words, 'Gold Digger' and 'Naive Cow'
3 weeks of dating.......
Id had the shittest friday at work ever and I just wanted to go out that night. I bumped into a girl that I have known since 1990, we went on a school holiday together. Anyway, we got talking, as you do.....I never saw her often because she has been married for 10 years and very happily married...so I thought! Anyway, that night, she introduced me to her mate and we hit it off straight away, we were going out regularly at the weekends.
Now it gets complicated.....
In the nearly 16 years that I have known my 'friend', we went on 3 school holidays with eachother, used to go clubbing and drinking together til' she met her husband, and Im not ashamed to say it, we slept with eachother regularly in our late teens, athough it was just fun. Then I saw her last year at a funeral for the first time in 9 years and we sat and spoke for hours, she was telling me how unhappy she was in her marrage and that she'd married too young and wished that we could have made a go of it, then went our separate ways!
Now I'm involved in an affair with a married woman! It started on the shittest friday ever! There were emotions between us that night, but I couldnt do anything because she's married! She told me she was still unhappy and If I would take her out. I said yes. She has 2 kids and I know she is faithful but very very unhappy. He goes out to work at 7am then gets back in at 10pm and leaves her to do everything else, and thats how shes been for 10 years.....then he moans when she wants a night out at the weekend.
We have both told eachother that we love eachother and I know I am, I now get that 'sickie' feeling and everything feels so right. Although it obviously isnt! My folks know that I'm seeing her, shes been to see them to tell them she's not arsing me around and that she loves me...which I thought took some bottle.
Then I got the phonecall this morning telling me that she'd applied for a house and she'd left her husband for me, and although I'm happy with her and love her to bits and ultimately, I feel as guilty as fekkin sin! Should I?
My head is also totally battered!
Chom own mudder fukker.