I dont know what the hell I'm gonna do!!!
Warning: this has NOTHING to do with Queen!
Have any of you guys ever been in a situation, where someone liked you, and you didnt like them back? Well, anyways...heres my story, it wont be too long:
There is this guy that I've been friends with for like almost 4 years...I got his number when I used to work at a grocery store here in Milwaukee...anyways, I did kinda like him at first, but as I got to know him, I could see that he really wasnt my type...anywho, I still wanted to be friends with him anyways, because hell, I dont mind having another friend. But I wish that was the case with him:
HE IS HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH ME!!!
All he talks about, is he'll be happy when we finally hook up...but guess what, its NOT GONNA HAPPEN! Everytime I think about kissing him, it make me want to lick up my own vomit. And plus, I just dont want a boyfriend right now...because I dont have anything good to offer any guy, NOTHING GOOD! I just moved back home w/my parents, I work 3rd shift at a hotel, I dont hardly make any money as it is, and besides the fact, I just dont have a desire for a guy right now.
But the hard part of it, is that I still want to be friends with him nontheless, and I do love him, but not in the romantic sense. I just dont feel those kinda feelings toward him. My question for you guys is:
Should I just go with him, because I feel sorry for him?
Should I just change my cell phone number, and just forget about him? (which would be HARD cause I know how much he loves me!)
Can you actually go with someone you arent attracted to, and grow an attraction to him/her?
I really am sick of being sad over this, and the weird part about it, is that I dont want to lose him...yeah, I know it sounds like I'm contradicting myself, but its true...its kinda like the same situation with Freddie Mercury, and Mary-Austin...I'm pretty sure that he loved her, but he wasnt In-love with her, theres a difference!! Thats the same thing here. Plus, he acts kinda "slow" sometimes, a little off at times, like he acts childish, but not on purpose.
I'm really tired of crying over this, what should I do?
Loving the pass, cherishing the present, and looking forward to the future