Hi Queenzone, I'm sorry to take your time, but I just need to get this shit out!
This might all seem very silly, and you really don't have to read it. Like I said, I just have to get it out, and I have been complaining so much to my friends lately, even though they have way more troubble than me.
It all starts right from the morning off.. Í usually wake up when my roomie is taking a shower, but today I did'nt, so at 7am she awakes me. That would normally have given me 15 minuttes to take a shower and make myself ready, but I have to be in the school kitchen (I'm at boarding school this week, annd that begins at 7.. I did'nt have time to take a shower (I needed one quite a lot, so that just sucked) before after having made breakfast with my ex roomie, and two bays, wich ment that I did'nt have time to eat breakfast.. and we where going on a long cykleride to the town today.
Then we get home, and my luck was that my tire llost its air, so a teacher drove me back to the school. But the second I get beck, I have to get back to the kitchen.
when we had finnished doing the dishes after lunch, I had the day off until dinner, so I stardet looking for some company, but almost everybody else had classes. But this boy (whom I'm unfortunately in love with and used to have an afair with) is in his room, so I go in there as I have done so many times before (we used to be friends, but obviously not anymore). I get in there, and he does'nt even look at me when I say hi to him. he replys, to what I say to him, but it's very obvious that my presence is not wanted. So I leave him, feeling embarrased, and sad.. My mmood was'nt too good already, because I just found out that I have gained on weight.
I go and watch some stupid tv, waiting for people to get off class, trying not to cry, because of the boy. He had been a bit like that to me too yestwerday, but two days ago, I remember that he came over and gave me a big hug, and normally we're good friends.
Then tonight when I have to go back to the kitchen, I break a glass AGAIN, and the dishwascher fucked, so we got out half an hour later than we should.
I hope that things will clear up between me and him, but I know that it wont as long as I'm in love with him.. FUCK IT ALL!!!